The picture in the header of this blog -- that’s my eye you
see there.
A few months ago, I had a vision as I was waking up in the
morning. It looked a lot like that picture up top. It was an image of my own
face. It almost looked like I was gazing into a camera. Only, since I was the
one seeing the vision, it was like I was also holding and operating that same
camera. This resulted in the uncanny experience of looking myself right in the
eyes. Not coincidentally, my eyes were the most prominent thing about this
picture of me that I was seeing.
In real life, my eyes are green. My dad informed me that
green is the most unusual color for eyes. I was curious and looked it up. I learned that only 2% of the
population of the world has green eyes. So already, I have something special
going on there. (This clay is grateful to her Potter!)
My real-life eyes are a soft, subtle green. A green that
matches the gentle, quiet spirit that the Lord created in me. But in this
vision that I saw of myself, the green was brilliant and vivid. Radiantly
bright, clear eyes. A piercing gaze straight into the camera. Penetrating. Eyes
that were almost luminescent in their intent searching.
I journaled the vision. I often find that understanding
comes when I write things down. This occasion was no exception. Holy Spirit explained
to me two things about what I was seeing. First, He told me that the vibrant
green represented growth. This is the same green that flourishing plants
display as they reach ever upwards in their process of development.
The second detail He highlighted was the intense luminosity of
the eyes. This speaks of clarity of insight. He has brought my spiritual
eyesight into an advanced stage of maturity. He has honed it to a point of
acute sensitivity and perception. Over a long, arduous training process, He has
brought me to a place where I can see far beyond what is visible. What I have
begun to take in with my heart’s eyes is blowing me away.
This is all His doing, by the way. All Him, completely. I am
utterly in awe of His works. I step back and contemplate what He has done on
and through my life’s journey. I am stunned. His goodness leaves me speechless.
And yet here I am, trying to find the words.
I have been a journaler since an influential junior high
teacher assigned us to the task in seventh grade. However, in the last couple
of years, my journaling habit has escalated. There has been so. much. download!
Sometimes it honestly feels like it’s very hard to keep up with all that the
Lord is revealing and speaking to me. A powerful drive within me has pushed me
to continually inscribe on my pages each word from Him, each inspiration, each
Spirit-to-spirit interaction.
Hours and hours have gone into recording the dreams and
insights that keep on coming. Sometimes, it’s been days and days. I have often
wondered about the amount of time that God has had me invest in this activity.
“Am I faithfully stewarding the time You have given me,
Father?” my heart has asked.
He has persistently answered with a fervent and steady, “Yes.”
The result has been hefty sized journals filled in the space
of just months.
“Is this for any benefit beyond my own training in hearing
You, Lord?” has been another frequent question arising inside me. On Saturday,
March 12th, I got His answer. He instructed me to start this blog.
He pointed to the endless recordings of His thoughts, His musings, His teachings
scrawled across the lines of my handwritten entries. He told me that it’s time.
The time has come to share them with you.
I finally understand. Dear friend, these inscriptions of His
heart are for you just as much as they are for me!
My prayer is that each time I post, you will catch a more
intimate glimpse into the Father’s love. I earnestly desire that this blog
would be a catalyst in your relationship with Him. The more we truly see Him
for who He is, the more His beauty captures us. He has allowed me the
breathtaking privilege of seeing Him. He has astounded me with His affection,
with His fierce devotion, with His irresistible closeness. This has produced in
me a passion for seeing others go deeper and deeper into the real, living
knowledge of Him too. I want each post to help awaken your own hunger and thirst
for Him!
Now that this is sinking in, I am full of joy to begin to
pour out what I have been given. I have been bowled over, overwhelmed entirely
by His goodness, His lavish generosity. I can hardly wait for this overflow to
get to where it’s supposed to go – into your life to stir your cravings for the
presence of God, and to help you know Him better!
What an unspeakable honor to be able to give to you from
what I have received!
Jennifer, the message of your blog is a very welcome one-Thank you! I look forward to reading and learning from what the Lord has given you. Ann Cooper
ReplyDeleteThank you so much, Ann! I am so grateful for your love and support!
DeleteThis is SO exciting! I, too, learn from writing things down. I often share before it's ready, though, I think. I'm really happy to be able to read what you have to say... Or, rather, what God has to say through you.
ReplyDeleteI am so grateful for your support, Sam! I love you!
DeleteI am so grateful and honored to receive such a blessing. Jennifer, I highly value insights from you because I know you have an amazing intimacy with God, and yes, He calls me too, thank you for helping me in my walk to get closer to God - I am grateful. You ARE an inspiration - all Glory to God - isn't He soooooooooo Good - and isn't it astounding (!!) to BELONG TO GOD - one of the Praise songs I picked for next Sunday is the hymn - 'He Hideth My Soul' - it's a beautiful hymn - He is a WONDERFUL SAVIOR - I'm so so looking forward to reading all the Lord has you share - thank you sister - BLESS YOU ABUNDANTLY
ReplyDeleteI am so VERY grateful for all your encouragement and love! YES He is AMAZING!!! Big hugs!!!
Deletethis is Julie.....I thought it would show my name!!
ReplyDeleteI see your name! Love you Julie!
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