The picture in the header of this blog -- that’s my eye you see there.
A few months ago, I had a vision as I was waking up in the morning. It looked a lot like that picture up top. It was an image of my own face. It almost looked like I was gazing into a camera. Only, since I was the one seeing the vision, it was like I was also holding and operating that same camera. This resulted in the uncanny experience of looking myself right in the eyes. Not coincidentally, my eyes were the most prominent thing about this picture of me that I was seeing.
In real life, my eyes are green. My dad informed me that green is the most unusual color for eyes. I was curious and looked it up. I learned that only 2% of the population of the world has green eyes. So already, I have something special going on there. (This clay is grateful to her Potter!)
My real-life eyes are a soft, subtle green. A green that matches the gentle, quiet spirit that the Lord created in me. But in this vision that I saw of myself, the green was brilliant and vivid. Radiantly bright, clear eyes. A piercing gaze straight into the camera. Penetrating. Eyes that were almost luminescent in their intent searching.
I journaled the vision. I often find that understanding comes when I write things down. This occasion was no exception. Holy Spirit explained to me two things about what I was seeing. First, He told me that the vibrant green represented growth. This is the same green that flourishing plants display as they reach ever upwards in their process of development.
The second detail He highlighted was the intense luminosity of the eyes. This speaks of clarity of insight. He has brought my spiritual eyesight into an advanced stage of maturity. He has honed it to a point of acute sensitivity and perception. Over a long, arduous training process, He has brought me to a place where I can see far beyond what is visible. What I have begun to take in with my heart’s eyes is blowing me away.
This is all His doing, by the way. All Him, completely. I am utterly in awe of His works. I step back and contemplate what He has done on and through my life’s journey. I am stunned. His goodness leaves me speechless. And yet here I am, trying to find the words.
I have been a journaler since an influential junior high teacher assigned us to the task in seventh grade. However, in the last couple of years, my journaling habit has escalated. There has been so. much. download! Sometimes it honestly feels like it’s very hard to keep up with all that the Lord is revealing and speaking to me. A powerful drive within me has pushed me to continually inscribe on my pages each word from Him, each inspiration, each Spirit-to-spirit interaction.
Hours and hours have gone into recording the dreams and insights that keep on coming. Sometimes, it’s been days and days. I have often wondered about the amount of time that God has had me invest in this activity.
“Am I faithfully stewarding the time You have given me, Father?” my heart has asked.
He has persistently answered with a fervent and steady, “Yes.”
The result has been hefty sized journals filled in the space of just months.
“Is this for any benefit beyond my own training in hearing You, Lord?” has been another frequent question arising inside me. On Saturday, March 12th, I got His answer. He instructed me to start this blog. He pointed to the endless recordings of His thoughts, His musings, His teachings scrawled across the lines of my handwritten entries. He told me that it’s time. The time has come to share them with you.
I finally understand. Dear friend, these inscriptions of His heart are for you just as much as they are for me!
My prayer is that each time I post, you will catch a more intimate glimpse into the Father’s love. I earnestly desire that this blog would be a catalyst in your relationship with Him. The more we truly see Him for who He is, the more His beauty captures us. He has allowed me the breathtaking privilege of seeing Him. He has astounded me with His affection, with His fierce devotion, with His irresistible closeness. This has produced in me a passion for seeing others go deeper and deeper into the real, living knowledge of Him too. I want each post to help awaken your own hunger and thirst for Him!
Now that this is sinking in, I am full of joy to begin to pour out what I have been given. I have been bowled over, overwhelmed entirely by His goodness, His lavish generosity. I can hardly wait for this overflow to get to where it’s supposed to go – into your life to stir your cravings for the presence of God, and to help you know Him better!
What an unspeakable honor to be able to give to you from what I have received!